So, Where Am I?

It’s been a little while I know.  I’ve been busy, having fun, worrying and stressed.

Rewind back to Friday the 2nd and after school was Jayden’s 8th birthday party, Saturday the 3rd both Dave and Jayden’s birthday, Sunday 4th Sofie’s 12th birthday party, and then Monday I started College.  Tuesday night Sofie’s graduation.  Thursday morning was the fourth of five personal one-on-one qi gong sessions learning the “five element qi gong” exercises.  Friday, my favourite Aunty, whom I haven’t seen in like 11 or so years came to visit.  Yesterday, was fun at Fern’s baby shower.

Now College.  I’ve taken on four subjects this semester – Counselling Psychology, Musculoskeletal Anatomy, Communication and Chinese Acupressure Massage.  The CP and Comm are shit easy with only an assignment at the end which I could do now .  However, MA and CAM are another ball game.

They completely freaked me out and I’ve been stressing so much and carrying it in my right shoulder which has been aching like a bastard and my periods are now a day or two late .

My concern is over retaining and remembering the information, come exam time.  There seems to be so much to remember and with an exam the first week back in January for MA I was worrying about when I’d get time to study being such a busy time of year.  Kids have now finished school and Jason and his girlfriend arrived yesterday for a week.

All these new words such as ossification, mesenchymal cells, osteoblasts, chondroblasts, periosteum and I’m like WTF?  As for channels and points – there’s hundreds of these magical spots.

I had a session with Vicky (http://www.purepossibility.co.uk/) on Thursday night and then a phone call with Katie (http://head-heart-health.com/) on Friday and I’ve come to the conclusion that what’s the worst that can happen?  I don’t pass and have to either resit the exam or redo the subject next semester.  Does it really matter if it takes me longer?  Being the perfectionist that I am I just want to pass and put so much pressure on myself.  And then, of course, I doubt myself and whether I have done the right thing and if I can actually do it?

All of this stress, pressure, doubt and worry is taking away from the excitement of learning.

I’m going to stick it out and just do the best that I can.  I want to enjoy learning new stuff and when exam time comes if I pass, great, if I don’t then I’ll probably be down on myself but hey I’m only human and shit happens.  And no doubt I’ll learn something along the way and about all this and myself.

So there you have it.  My exciting but stressful week .